Saturday 3rd May 2025

It's May!

Feel like I've been on a whole journey.

More specifically, I have been on several of them because I did lots of stuff in April.

I feel like more of a person now than I have done in ages. I actually think I had a really good April.

Which is weird because two or three weeks ago I was feeling really crazy. So I guess I am kind of all over the place.

Like today, I went to a thing with lots of people that I sort-of know which is stressful to me and it felt really draining and I was so tired when I got home.

But also I worked out and went on a walk and my friend found some old ceramics work I made a few years back and fired it for me and it looks really cool and that made me feel really happy. 

I had forgotten that my ceramics practice was good, and it was actually really nice to see things that only I would have made. They looked beautiful together. I wonder if somebody else would love my work as much as I do.

I'm feeling kinda buzzed like I have spent too much time with too many people and I do need to go lie down in a dark space and calm my brain down a bit.

But I'm also happy with all the stuff I've been doing. And there's some more stuff I want to do tomorrow. Am I doing too much?

Reading again (and again and again): Network Effect by Martha Wells
https://marthawells.com/networkeffect.htm 

Stuck in my head: Mr Vain by Culture Beat
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZMtf_ouMTHw

Watched: Carry Greenham Home by Beeban Kidron and Amanda Richardson
https://www.imdb.com/title/tt1788360/